Money troubles

Recently I worked as a hostess before in Okachimachi... everything was fine for a while, until I didnt accept some demands by the owner (moving all the way to odawara just to work at his other club, and less pay than okachimachi as well, lol, and he wasnt paying my moving cost, apartment, etc.. ), so they let me go. They didnt pay me my full salary either. I was expecting at least 250,000 yen for october. They gave me 80,000 yen. i barely had enough for rent (60,000 yen per month) and bills (electricity, gas, NHI, etc). Let alone any money left for my baby things, food, transportation money job interviews(I was looking for full-time day time work, and have since acquired one, but it wont start until a few weeks laters).

I also think the owner were related to yakuza, so I dont know if I can really fight them. Even if i report them, or want to sue them, those people have my information, like address from my alien registration card.. . Many illegal russians or romanians work there, like slaves. Because He pay their ticket over here to Japan. Maybe something similar happens to them, but at least they are alone by themselves. I have to struggle with a baby. The legal people who worked for him, that have permanent residence, cant leave. They borrowed big money from him to send to their home countries. He doesnt allow them to have day time job either, even though they have their own visas. And, they dont make enough money to pay him back, just enough to pay their rent and live for the month. How can they pay him back? They wont for a while if they cant have another source of income. He has a permanent hold on them...


I tried to do 1 day temporary jobs too, but the agency said only citizens or permanent residents can use that services, and other visa holders can not-- even spouse of japanese/child of japanese or long term resident. i could understand if people with a work visa, not allowed to use temporary job services. but for people who have visas with no restriction on work, I was suprised to learn it.



For now I just work again at hostess club, in Ginza.. the owner also own some ginza hotels, so he's classy rich from real business and family inheritance, not like yakuza guy who has bad temper and want to treat people bad, and only rich from selling drugs, prostitution, etc.

The Ginza guy only hire legal peoples like permanent resident or marriage visa too. They are really strict about business and money.. and have real paperwork. so. i shouldnt have anymore problem about a salary.. if so, i can just report them for not paying me or whatever it is.


I went to interview before working both of these clubs and I definitely know the difference now between classy places and yakuza places. I know what to look for now. when i went to interview in ginza, the guys were dressed really nice. and had a good face, like calm face. The okachimachi people, they wear pants and white shirt with a tie, but their faces were tired, like maybe from stress or having a rough time.



Kyouka's father disappeared sometime during my pregnancy... and he hasnt been returning my emails or calling me. so far. Usually i dont think about him at all and Im rather cool and collected about my situation and single motherhood. But I guess my recent financial crisis sent some shockwaves... At one point, I even had only 200 yen for a few days, and didnt take a train or eat anything. That was scary... I was thinking Im gonna have to steal food and bust train gates.. get coaught.. go to jail... lol.

last night, I randomly had a dream about him, and I was thinking, I should stalk the places where he used to go to see if I can catch him around. He moved, and I dont know if he still lives in shinjuku or not.. but maybe I need to stalk around that area..

but yeah, next time I see him, Im just gonna run up and kill him, no need to give warning or ask why he's disappeared and not helping me take care of his kid. I could be suffering a lot less financially if he would help, to at least buy the baby things.

so far, all the jap guys i know are no good. I've mentioned before that I know 5 guys already married with kids and also have mistress. even 1 of them, having wonderful relationship with their wife, no fights, playful, best friends..., but he has sex with wife and his mistress.

I'm looking for the single guy who can 'help' a little, financially, to take care of me and my daughter one day... the married ones who want want me, are useless to me. They cant help me with money cuz they gotta pay their own rent and wife's shit, and kids's shit. All they want is sex. sex isnt gonna pay my bills or put food on my table.